Heartbreak is life educating us

Well, this is certainly not how I wanted a Friday to turn out to be. normally I am out and about looking cute in a sport bra, spandex shorts, knee pads and my hair up keeping fit for my morning jog or practicing volleyball for an upcoming game later in the evening time, sometimes I even roller skate to keep my balance on par and my hips open to go against other roller derby opponents in matches. but this day SUCKS and I just feel like pushing people because of it.

Last Night, my second eldest dog cocoa who would have been 10 years old next month unexpectedly passed away. I am not sure what part that makes me sad the most, the fact that he passed so suddenly from being healthy all of his life to barely keeping his balance while walking or the fact that after he drunk his last drink and ate his last treat before I went off to bed that he went in his hiding spot to sleep, it's like he didn't want me to see him suffer if he did.

For those who know me I am an animal lover to the core. ever since I was a little girl I always grew up with dogs and cats. right now, my house is full of animals, it almost looks like a farm.

I am taking this kind of hard because this dog was wonderful. did all kinds of tricks, nothing would ever enter the yard, not even a shadow without him barking at it to let me know it was there. the emotional part is when he laid right beside me 2 years ago during my cancer fight. my condition was getting worse at the time and preparations were being made because they didn't think I was going to make it. My request was me wanting to see cocoa before the inevitable.

But I beat the odds and here I am. able to vent and explain how much little cocoa meant to me.

As for the cause of death, we believe that its Old Dog Syndrome or (Vestibular Disease) It's basically a disease that happens mainly in senior dogs, which of course starts at age 9.

Some dogs can live with that for years and recover. some can get it for a few weeks and recover. in rare instances they can develop it and die instantly.

Chihuahuas in general has a lifespan of about 20 years, sometimes even longer than that. I wished he could have lived longer. so, this is it for the blog. normally I end with something positive, but I really don't have anything to add this time, sorry. :(